The Lord, Jesus Christ, delivered me from the hell of alcoholism on February 16, 1997.
I had fought the battle alone and lost so many times. More than once I considered killing myself in order to escape, permanently, from it.
But, God knew my true heart and heard my soul scream that incredible day.........and, in one instant of answered prayer, He miraculously delivered me and changed my life forever!
Since then, God has been teaching me what real life and love are, and how to rely on Him for every strength. He has taught me to live sober forever, no matter what life throws or dumps or slings at me, and it has done a lot of all those things, but I have never had another craving or another thought about alcohol.
Sometimes when I look back at my life, it seems that it was the life of a different person, and it was because I have been made new......transformed by the power that Jesus Christ alone has. Truly I am a new creature through His grace and love.
A power greater than myself was what it took to restore me to sanity, to life. Not a post or a table in an AA meeting, as I heard people say in the beginning of my AA days; not a book......big or small, not a friend or a sponsor, not an old-timer----------- NOTHING could help me or save me but JESUS CHRIST Himself !
I never go to meetings, never rely on anyone or anything for my sobriety except the One who gave it to me, who absolutely and forever removed all traces of alcoholism from me. This is the deliverance of the Lord Jesus Christ. I don't need a backup system with Him in charge. His work is complete and everlasting! There are no half measures with God!
Every day I thank Him for the wonderful new life He has given me. Truly it is more exciting and infinitely more amazing in every respect than anything Alice ever experienced in Wonderland!!! My story is better than any fairy tale.
My personal testimony is based on the Alice in Wonderland stories. The Cheshire Cat told Alice, "You must be mad or you wouldn't have come here."
No, it wasn't madness that took me there into the realms of the hell of alcoholism....it was madness I found there through the innocence of taking that first drink.
By the grace of God, I am free forever in Christ Jesus!!! |